Patience

OK, so I have been in a really blah mood the last few days.  I have been on disability the last 7 weeks due to another surgery on my stomach.  I am getting paid part of what I usually would but we haven't been able to do much, well almost nothing this summer because of it.  I haven't really thought about it until a couple of days ago.  Don't get me wrong, I have greatly enjoyed being off with my kids.  Staying up late, sleeping in, making breakfast for them.  Which I usually can't cause I leave for work at 5 in the morning.  On top of not having hardly any money our microwave, washer, ac and back hatch door in my Tahoe broke.  Plus we have not paid all the bills for July yet.  Then my husband told me today the engine light in his car came on.  REALLY!!!!!!! :{ 

We have been tithing like God wants us to, the whole 10% from the gross amount before taxes.  Let me tell you it's a lot and it's taken us a long time to give like we were supposed to.  Thus me feeling blah blah blah is really me feeling sorry for myself.  Thinking we don't have money and worrying about things was stressing me out.  The devil put it in my head that we were broke and pointed out all the things we couldn't do, have, or fix.  So I started to doubt giving the whole 10%.  Even though spiritually I knew it was right.  He was playing with my human emotions through bills, wants and fears that it was OK to skimp on tithe. I was in my bathroom putting up towels feeling blah still battling it out in my head when I looked up and saw a picture on the wall.  What I saw automatically made me cry and have peace about the issue.

Patience with others is LOVE, patience with self is Hope, patience with God is FAITH.

Perfect, what I forgot to remember is that it wasn't ours in the 1st place.  We are supposed to give the 1st fruits to him, Joyfully and wait for him to bless us 10 fold.  The fact is we are supposed to believe and put our total trust and faith in him.  He will always provide and take care of us, and all I needed to remind me of that was a picture on the bathroom wall.  My peace and patience have been restored thanks to God.